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Those life lines never help me. They only make it worse. All they say is, “Mhm.” “Ok.” “That must be really hard.” They only make everything worse. But thank you so very much for trying to helo.<33

Anonymous said: See that's what my friend thought too. She was convinced no one cared. She was annoying. No one loved her. So she killed herself. And lone behold, guess what? Its ripped out everyone's heart. Everyone loved her. Your friends aren't annoyed by you. They love you. They care, they don't show it but they care. Don't listen to me, fine. But deep down, you know it's true. Its there. Love. You've made more people smile than you know. Keep holding on.

I’m trying as hard as I possibly can to hold on but i’ve tried too long. I’m just so tired of caring. Just so tired.

Anonymous said: Their role model, gone. The precious girl they always known and loved, gone and dead like that. Do you want that to happen? Of course you don't. Who would? It's a horrible thing. I tears people. It brings out the worst in us all. Now you need to just relax, and calm down. Don't kill yourself tonight. Not tonight, not any night, not any day, never. You're so worth it its crazy. You just don't see it yet..

I will never see how much i’m loved if i’m even loved. My mom is too busy selling drugs, dad doing them. Friends are always annoyed by me.  Not a single guy “likes” me. Trust me, no one ever has or will love me. If you knew me, you’d know why. I’m so annoying. And boring. I can’t make a single person smile.

Anonymous said: Don't. Your loved. You got a message see i care now dont do it

That didn’t make me feel better. I appreciate the message, though. I’m still probably going to choke myself.

I think i’m going to do it tonight. Kill myself. And I think no matter what anyone says will stop me. If I don’t get one message in my ask or just a message by 12:00, i’m choking myself.

I’m such a fat piece of shit. I can’t go a day without eating. Tommorow I won’t eat a single thing. I have to eat wednesday. But I won’t eat for the rest of the week after that. God i’m so fat. I had 1 and a half walking tacos with a milkshake. FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT.

God damn it. I just tried to choke myself but it didn’t work. Maybe it’s not quite the right time. I’m such a piece of shit. I hope the next time I try I succeed.

Tonight, i’m going to do it. I am going to choke myself to death. With what? I don’t know. I don’t have rope. But i’m going to do it. Choke until I feel, hear, see, smell nothing. So peaceful. I can’t wait.

God why am I such a fat piece of shit?